Love long gone

I wait at the porch

with my heart scorch

out of love long gone

But I still don’t know why I yearn

for his touch or at least a sight of him

Love was a drug that

turned a control freak

like me into pyromaniac

I was invisible amongst the crowd

but still happy in my own world

Everything changed within second

when I first saw him standing across

Sparks flew instantly

My heart was stolen

at one glance at him

My conscious stopped me,

from doing this indigenous mistake

But I followed my foolish heart

Love is blind,

We realise this too late

I knew we weren’t perfect piece

And I didn’t mind

When in love,

even crow looks like a dove

World was colourful

I felt beautiful

when I was with him

Everything was right and serene

I had begun to love blue and green

Nights were sleepless one

until I messaged him once

Our messages was more

like one way communication

Just like one sided love

I became obsessed of him

I couldn’t accept anyone except him

He was my prince in shining armour

He replaced my celestial crushes

and made me human again

Alas! This love was long gone

Or was it ever there

Or maybe I was disillusioned

Whatever it was, I was spelled

And then one day came

I fell from the top

All my false dreams came

crashing down

My heart was broken

Not by him,

but by the mirage created by me

He was gone like a wind

leaving me behind

with tears and grief

I lost everything

with foolish hopes still shining

Missing

Her blue strapless summer dress,
with less or no make up
And long black tresses
Tumbling on her face
Are the last reminders of that day.

I wish I was more firm
While saying no
I wish I was more stringent
And didn't stumble
To her kind request of  night out
At so called popular club

" It's just a night out,
All my girl friends will be there"
She had said with pleading  eyes
That melted my heart
And sigh! I said yes!

Hours turned into days,
My little girl didn't turn up
Where did she go?
Is she fine?
My concerns gave me sleepless nights

'Missing !' ' Disappearance !' had become
Common words around me.
As the news of her disappearance spread
People came from various areas of life
To help me trace my baby

Police stations was my home now,
With me spending more time there
The club where she hung out
The people she was around,
Anything or everything about her
had become center of my life

' She must have run away'
' She must have been abducted'
' She must have been murdered'
' She must be used as pawn for human trafficking!'
Ah! These thoughts never left me alone

Forensic evaluation didn't help
Criminal site investigation was useless
Any small clues about her
Only gave me few minutes of peace

Where was she?
Did she feel the pain or sorrow
 the way I am feeling now?
Every minute doesn't go
Without prayer of finding her safe.

I sit on the coach
with my eyes on the front doors.
The same door when I had bid her
For one last time.

I still hope one fine day
she walks into my life
With same blue summer strapless dress
And long  black tresses

That Girl

A girl whose is known by everyone

to be soft spoken , delicate and petite

Yeah, she is the same girl

with big dreams in her eyes.

She is tender one with heart

so golden and pure that

she never lets anyone go astray

who comes into her life.

Love and only love,

she looks out for

Alas! she only finds being rebuffed by

her own and unknown.

She has never been insufficient

in case of money or love or people

but I don’t know what she still desires

Whatever it is ,her pale face shows it all.

She is neither flamboyant not bubbly,

but can get wild when she wants to

She is a plain jane who knows

how to stay invisible in smoking hot LBD

She is not your typical girl

with long hair and bright smile

But she is a girl on whom

you can count on

Fury is her last name

Adamant is her right

which she will never forgo for anything

She is right and always right ( Don’t you ever tell that she’s wrong)

Romance is her favorite expression

She listens to taylor swift songs

and watch chick flicks intently

But she will always state that she is not girly

Books are her best friends or

can I say treasure of her life

which she cannot share at any cost

A please may change her mind though

She falls into love instantly

but she can’t get out of it

sooner than she fell for it

Though she believes love was never for her.

She is unforgiving and merciless

but one hug and smile

can do wonders by

melting her cold heart

She feels insecure and broken

but for the people around her

she never lets them feel them same

with her constantly cheering and encouraging them

She is amazing listener

but awful advisor

She will be there for you

but she will only be supportive until she trusts you

Writing is her craze

She writes during crazy hours of night

Even if her eyes and hands don’t

give her company

She hardly complains

but when she does

she wants someone to listen

Unfortunately she hardly finds them

Loving her is difficult

yet not complicated

Though people think they love her

No one has successful got inside her heart

Fake and untrue stuff are

not her thing and if she finds them

she will throw them out like

dust and garbage

She may look vulnerable and weak

but she is strong and firm

What she needs, she gets it

not by evil means but by fruitful methods

Call her innocent or inflexible

Call her angel or devil

Call her mature or childish

Call her anything you please, she doesn;t mind

What matters to her

is your attention and loyalty

If she gets these two things,

she is only yours

And you must be wondering

whether this is all

about the girl I like or

someone I am close then

you are wrong because

that girl is me!